Reviving a Lost Love

It’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything.  Too long.  And there is a good reason why.  I don’t believe I’ve mentioned it before, but I suffer from chronic depression and fibromyalgia, two crappy conditions that feed off of each other until I am this tornado of pain and foul moods permanently camped out on the couch with cheese curl crud embedded under my fingernails.  I *do* take medications (yes, that is plural) to fight the depression, but they just haven’t been enough lately, and never really were.  So – enter the backup depression fighters – Mr. JustCraftSh*t and an old, lost love – painting!

We were having the annual “just tell me what you want for Christmas” conversation, and I hadn’t really given it much thought.  So I rattled off a couple of things that were NEVER going to be under the tree, and then something popped into my head and I blurted it out before the depression joker took over and made it sound stupid to me, “I want to paint again.”

So, under the tree this year were professional quality acrylic paints, beautiful brushes, gesso, and a lovely pad of special paper.  Mr. JCS ROCKS!

Merry Christmas to me!

I finally got to test drive those bad boys today, and I’m even going to show you a bit of what I did.  Feel free to laugh at my lack of talent – but in my defense, the last time I painted (not counting Paint Nite-type events) was at least 10, if not 20 years ago.  Shit, I’ve even double-checked the math – I’m officially old.  When the hell did that happen?!

Anyway, for your amusement and my cathartic therapy, I give you “Lonely Daisy.”

Told you.

Told you.

I started with a 12″x12″ canvas, and gave it two coats of gesso, pretty thickly.  I wanted a lot of texture in my painting, not that I planned it out or anything.  It just appealed to me, so I didn’t fight it.  Then I gave it a magenta background, with a little of anthraquinone blue and white, mixed directly on the canvas loosely, I liked the depth it gave.

Messy magenta

Then, because I don’t plan, I got lots of steps all mixed up, but because it is art, there is no wrong way.  I started by outlining the glass vase, then adding stems, but I forgot to paint the stems INSIDE the vase.  Because glass is see-through, you dolt.  *headtable*  Anyway, I continued on to the tiny baby’s breath flowers, just dotted white paint all over, then layered a smaller amount of fresh spring green dots and darker forest green dots, and white over that again to give it a more 3D feel, and started on the glass.  Glass is hard, and I should have just pretended it was a ceramic vase, but I like a challenge… even though I almost always fail.  Miserably.  This was only a slight exception, I think if I had painted the stems in the vase BEFORE going to town on the glass reflections it would have been much better, but I’m still pretty proud of the outcome.

After using some profanity and painting the stems, I stepped back to see what I thought.  It was ok, but seemed unfinished, so I decided to paint my favorite flower, the humble daisy, in amongst the baby’s breath, stepped back, and was happy.  What do you think?

So there you go.  My non-masterpiece that is helping me get off the couch.  Don’t you touch my cheese poofs, though…

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